asdfghjkl

i actually wanted to just tell him off and just hope that he doesn't call me waifu after i ranted b/c
i feel so much better & less guilty after ranting out ahahahaahas }

vv

BUT

this idiot called yutian told me to block this guy off from everything idk why i'm listening to him but okaaaay? x.x

yEAH this whole post is dedicated to this one bastard who i reALLY can't stand sometimes
most of the time anyway

-__-

erm okay i guess it kind of started when he facebook-messaged me reeeaallyyy often
then we skyped most of the nights together
and i fell asleep in front of my laptop screen while skyping with him twice
and i even broke down in front of him because i was depressed about family issues which was totally not intentional

?????????????????????????????????????????????????????

i think i sort of gave him the impression that i was an easy target or something because i bET HE HAS NEVER SEEN OTHER GIRLS THAT VULNERABLE BEFORE URGH

//regretttttttts

rundown on his character/ my impression of him:

• fucking rich bastard who is already working at 17 idek i'm sorta jealous b/c i don't have a headstart in my career like him
• talks to a LOT of xmm. he tells me that he can only get along well with older/ more mature cosplayers so he wants to be inside the xmm circle too WOT
• counsels some people????????
• since the day i cried he keeps saying that he needs to come to my house and talk to my mom to help us solve the problem;;
  doES he even understand what's so wrong about this situation -__- why would my mom even accept help from a total stranger who is barely an adult?
• SUDDENLY CALLING ME WAIFUUuuu all of a sudden and he still calls me that to this day
  this is so wrong on so many levels do you feel me
  Idek i don't know how to protest every single time so i always reply him w "wot", "no", "i'm not even your waifu" and annoyed emoticons
• recently he has been telling me things like I should quit school and sign marriage papers with him so that i can live my life like a princess and have all the things i want eRM???
  why would i want that?!>

text message from just now;;
sorry for the horrible edit but you get the gist of it ~__~

why are you being so demanding/ controlling when i'm not even your property??

GFDI STOP TREATING ME AS IF I'M YOURS ALREADydsadsaia

yESYESYES

I ACTUALLY DON'T NEED A GUARDIAN TO GO TO HPB WITH ME WOOTS

yesssssssssss

don't need to trouble my mom or brother hahahhas wooo000ts

i'm honestly super glad ; w ; wheeeze .

i'm such an idiot for making myself so busy hahahhas i have not really much time for myself ; v ;

ermm ermmmmm ermmmmmmm?!?!??!

omfg please people

why did so many people give me loli characters to cosplay

i'm not short anymore iM NOT I'M REALLY 160 CM ;v;

i don't really suit characters who are 11x cm hahahahas wot i'm not skinny either

i wanna cosplay something more matured uggghhh go away chubby face :u

idek hi

i kinda looked through the poly brochures i got
i.e. >> sp and rp since i actually haven't gotten brochures from other polys yet uhm

basically i kinda narrowed my choices yay ** throws confetti around,,, yipeeee~ 

which are:

• information technology (security, perhaps?)
• communication related courses

i seriously wanna keep spamming aaAAH

i have twitter for this actually but with ~72 followers /m\
i'm shy laaaaa. :x


fuck la what do i do with life b/c life doesn't come with a manual book
there's too many damn paths i can take but

will i be able to sustain them until i get much older?
will i be able to support everyone in my family and accommodate my own expenditures?

god damn it ; w ;

lemme just be a couch potato because yeh that's a good option

gonna revive this blog because i remember that it's my favourite one last time! hahahahhas T__T

fak fak let me shoot myself in the head for being so weeaboo last time o m f g

i think i actually deleted most of my posts already so-- i'm just gonna disregard the rest LOOOOL i hope no one ever reads those! :(



uGH i don't know anymore i dON'T

why is everyone liking me all of a sudden uhh????
i'm not even trying to be liked anymore i'm not asdfghjkl
i told myself multiple times not to enter a relationship anymore because in the end i would only end up hurting myself or someone else

i really can't maintain a relationship la sob. idk why but i think i would rather be single? but a part of me says that i should be more bold and try out more stuff

nO NO NO
i wanna hide in a hole and never come out ; w ;

prz

_(:3 /
lemme be forever alone ty